I'm back and pregnant

(This picture was taken when I was 16 weeks.)

It’s been a while since I updated my blog, pardon me for my laziness or because I’m pregnant, and being tired, exhausted and lazy is one of the feelings that I felt more at this state of my life, I would say so cause I can't even hardly pick up the house as much as I do before and can't finish a lot of task in a given day around the house.

Yes, You read it right that we are expecting a little one next year, after the last time I posted about how I pray and commune to God to give us what He plan for our future if He see that we are better off an aunt and uncle or a parents, and in less than a month I got pregnant without even my knowledge until a lot of my friends and family notice some changes in me and with no science intervention as my OB-Gyne told me that when I want to have a baby we need to work it out but I can testify that by God, prayer and faith all things are impossible.

And today I’m exactly 18 weeks and by the end of this month and year this coming 31st of December which is also my hubby’s birthday we will know the gender of the baby, and hopefully the baby will cooperate.

Today I got my Driver’s license after waiting, procrastinating and letting the permit expires and it takes me more than 4 years to really nail it, and the good thing I did the written and the road test once and got a passing remarks.

Ready or Not Ready???

Last August 21, 2008 I was able to talk to one of my co-worker (Crystal Guffey) about an issue that's been bothering me lately about PREGNANCY or having a KID, and she did really have a good insight about what I'm going through right now.

Because I don't know if I'm ready to have a kid (but oh well who is ready anyway to be a parent, because there are lots of young people out there who got impregnanted out of wedlock or unplanned at all but they managed it.), do I want to have a kid, do me and my hubby really want to have a kid, or I want to have a kid so I can see the fruit of our love or just want to have because I look at it as a trophy or a souvenir??? Which I don't want to cause I want it to be the fruit of our love for each other. And if I want one when do I think I want them and how?

And Crystal gave me a good book in a Bible for me to read she said to read Job and Proverbs to know how hard life can be in Job and how uplifting Proverbs is. And needs lots of prayers about it and I think I agree to this a lot because that's how I got married to my hubby through prayers and I think I need to be back on thase routine again to be prayerful and give God the drivers seat and let him cruise me to where He thinks is appropriate for me to do, thy will be done.

Because if I just tackle it by myself I can't see myself moving forward or seeing any decision that I can take by myself and I want to have my hubby to be beside me with all this stuff that's going through my head and that I would love to have more open communications about this issue that I am thinking, feeling and worrying.

I have a lot of hesitations as well why I am afraid to have a kid. First, what if I die so young and what happen to my kid? Cause this happen to me that I don't have parents at a young age. Second, what if my sister die or need me with her 3 own kids to raise? And do I think I could still help her in that matter? Third, are we ready to have a kid? Like are we ready Spiritually, Financially, Physically and Emotionally? And when do I know that I am ready to have a kid???? This is the questions that's been running in my head that still I can't find any answer and no one can...

And that day it marked the day for me to open my hearts on any possibilities that I will be tackling in days to come or in the near future...And I need to commune with God often about this issue that I am facing.

Hiking at White Rock Rim Loop

We love to hike as much as I want to galavant around. Last Saturday 6th of September my hubby decided that we will go on hiking trip and asked me where I want to hike so he gave me the Hiking Book that we have that covers hiking trail in Arkansas and I pick the White Rock Rim Loop in White Rock Mountain in Bidville, AR.

The drive was quiet long especially in the dirt road and out in the boondocks and I even feel frustrated cause my hubby did not follow the directions from the book and also I'm hungry cause I just ate a small bowl of cereal but anyway we got there and the view was just awesome it was worth the trip and I forgot that I was hungry until we start hiking but I had the great time hiking and taking lots of pictures and you can visit it in my photo album.

Saturday of the Labor Day weekend...

During holidays we go to Chouteau, OK which is my hubby's hometown to visit his folks and relatives in the area and last Labor Day weekend it's one of those days and good thing hubby's closest cousin was down there for the weekend working on the spookhouse and he is more excited to visit his hometown this time.

And I got to visit one of Aaron's cousin who got to marry a Filipina and they just moved from Hawaii and hopefully this is for good since her hubby is retired from the service and we had fun visiting with each other and my MIL was able to met her and got to see there new place.

I got to visit with Carey, Brian and Adam(who is visiting from Texas with his dad) at Aunt Gail and Uncle Wes's place (Carey's parents).

I got to visit Ate Dine at there new place.

Abby (Ate Dine's 3rd child) with there new pet whom they found in there backyard.

Betsy (Ate Dine's youngest) with there new pet.

Dan (Ate Dine's 2nd child) with there new pet again.

hubby riding the back around his parents place.

Happy Birthday Ceil!!!

She's one of my friend back in college and we still keep in touch as much as we could, though we live globe apart but through technology we keep in touch.

Yesterday Philippine time she had her natal day and I wasn't there to celebrate it with which I wish I could but it's just impossible to do so but through my blog I would commemorate her birthday.

Celia, Happy Birthday I wish you have more birthdays to come and hopefully one of those I would be there to celebrate it with you. I'm just here when need me.

Tagged: All About ME!!!

I am: a happy-go-lucky type of gal and I have a sanguine personality.

I think: we shouldn't be judgemental of other person without knowing them personally and looking deep in there hearts.

I know: that we are going to have a long weekend coming up, and still haven't decided what to do because we hate leaving our house during holidays cause that's the time robbers are out and about.

I have: a nice DSLR camera and that I need to know all the functions so I can use it to its best potential.

I wish: I can visit Davao next year since my brother is going to take a vacation on that year too, because if I'm not going to make it then it would be another 2 or 3 years that he can take a vacation and for us to see each other.

I hate: when those people who act like they are really concern about you but they are just there to listen so they have something to gossip about.

I miss: my niece and nephews who are in Davao.

I fear: that the people I love would gone astray and I can't help them.

I hear: the tapping the football on the background.

I smell: crabs and shrimps cause that's what I have for dinner..

I crave: good filipino food or something spicy.

I search: a lot of stuff in google.

I wonder: if i will ever have kids and if I would be a good mother???

I regret: that I wasn't a little wiser when I was growing up.

I love: my hubby to pieces.

I ache: when I saw kids being abused.

I am not: a crafty person

I believe: all things happen for a reason.

I dance: or I mean sway when I sing.

I sing: a lot in the office.

I cry: a lot when I watch heart wrenching movies or shows.

I fight: or stood up on what I believe is right.

I win: when I accept that I'm at fault and apologize about it.

I lose: my patience with stupid people.

I never: forget where I came from cause that's what made me who I am today.

I always: take shower as in washing my hair cause I knew a lot of people who just took a shower without wetting there hair.

I confuse: myself after speaking my native tongue and turn around talk to an english speaking people.

I listen: musics at my work's pc and sing with it.

I can usually be found: at home, infront of the computer.

I am scared: of the dark and being alone.

I need: more time to organize our house.

I am happy about: my life here in US with my hubby around me.

I imagine: what life would be if I have my both parents alive until now.

I tag: anyone who would love to do this....

Washington County Fair

Last August 22, our County hold there annual Fair Festival, Whitney invited me if I want to work with her in the fair and with my hubby's permission I said Yes to the said event but it didn't push through because the person who talk to her told her that there are a lot of people already signed up *sigh* I feel bad because Whit would love to have an extra income and who doesn't huh?!?.

So, I called my hubby as soon as I learn that I'm not working to the fair and told him that it would be a neat idea that we can just go ahead celebrate our 4th year church wedding anniversary (because we have our civil wedding anniversary too) at the fair and take a lot of picture and just chillax.

And indeed, we had fun and he got to have a funnel cake of course and got to ride the ferriswheel, just like an old school and still enjoying it.

To my readers have you been to any fair lately?

P.S Click on the picture so you could see my photo album...

A Patch of Blue

My hubby had tons of lists of movies that he loves to watch even those movies that were before his time and I'm telling you some of it are still in black and white. And at first I thought black and white??? hmp, that's really and old movie and never care to watch those kind of film knowing I'm not even a movie buff and I always have a prejudices about old movies because there technology back then are not as good as the one that I'm used to but heck why not try to watch one and see for myself. But there are black and white films that I would say that I love to watch and had more morale on the scriptwriting.

Just the other day my hubby introduced me to a movie titled "A Patch of Blue", it's a story about a blind girl Selina who lives with her drunkard ole pa and her mother who is a prostitute who was the reason that she got blinded when she was just 5.

She lead a monotonous life from doing the household chores to beadworks for Mr. Faber to bring some extra income and every now and then Mr. Faber would walk her to the park, later she asked her ole Pa if he can drop her off to the park and pick her on his way back home though at first he was hesitant because he will be home late but she insist that she's been living in the dark already so it wouldn't do much anything to her.

And one sunny afternoon in the park, there’s one black guy name Gordon who befriended to her and later teaches her more to what she was just doing such as how to maneuver around the park, use the phone, Braille and from walking to the park to her apartment and which made a big of a mess cause her mother saw it and she already told her not to make friends with any black people and she got into big trouble that her mom wants to move out on that place with another friend and with that Selina could even bring some extra dough. But she doesn’t like the idea and she run off to Gordon’s for help and indeed he call some school for the blind for her to stay there and learn more than what she is learning though she is already fallen for him but Gordon didn’t take advantage on the situation but rather wanted her to learn more than what he could teach her and whatever happens after a year and see if they still have the same feelings for each other.

I just love this film because Gordon was just a nobleman, on which she is willing to help the naïve Selina on how to face reality and that he still continue to take care of her even after Selina told him that she was raped at one point of her life and never take any advantage on her and that deepens the feeling of Selina towards him.

This is one of many quotes in the movie that touches me.

Selina D'Arcy: I know everything I need to know about you. I love you. [touching Gordon's face]

Selina D'Arcy: I know you're good, and kind. I know you're colored and I...

Gordon Ralfe: What's that?

Selina D'Arcy: ...And I think you're beautiful!

Gordon Ralfe: [smiling] Beautiful? Most people would say the opposite.

Selina D'Arcy: Well that's because they don't know you.

And I would say that this movie really tells a whole lot of how bad the racism back then and how people judge the person by its color though it still happen in this time of age we are in, but still Gordon prove to Selina that love breaks all barriers it may be through physical attribute or through the skin color and indeed they build a bridge for love to flourish between them.

New hairstyle...New Me and I'm lovin' it!!!

this is the only picture I can look that show how long my hair before I had my short haircut...
my recent hairstyle...i love it coz its easy to manage...and the back view...

Road trip to Minnesota

'Twas fun to be on a road trip and see different sites on the way to the specific destination. I had the privileged to have a road trip this year with my friend's family (Sasha, Russ and Zach) heading to Minneapolis, Minnesota. We left Arkansas around 8am last 7th of August and it was even pouring heavily on us that we had hard time seeing the road. The first stop Kansas City, Missouri to grab some lunch at Fritz it was a nifty place you have to order through a phone on your booth and the server will serve the drinks and your food will be served on a train they have the train track overhead and it drop the container where the food was place and it lower and voila our lunch was served we had fun and the kids had a blast. After that we head to Papillion, Nebraska where we are going to stay the night and it was free because one of the family that convoy with us it was his brothers place and we had great time visiting with them and especially the kids and that night we had 6 kids ranging from 2 years old to 13 years old I would guess. And the bad part of having kids on a road trip and especially if they don't feel good you really need to pack a lot of patient as in tons cause my friend at one point is ready give her son away but oh well that's just how kids temperament would be.

Friday, at 11am we head out for Minnesota and it's another 6 hours drive or more. Travelling with other family around and just by myself being in that group I had so much fun cause I can do whatever I wanna do or wherever I wanna go without thinking of a kid who will tug along with and to consider if they will have fun or not but of course I would love if my husband was with me but he opted not to go which I respected. And the good thing is I have 2 friends who are wanting to see and visit with me, one who lives in Wisconsin which is 2 hours away and who is driving down to meet me and one who lives 30 minutes away just outside St. Paul, Minnesota and is going to meet me as well. And on Friday night we had to pick James who flew in from New Orleans and that night James was hungry and silly me I told him we can look for some food outside the hotel and see if there's any place that is open and that is close by so we walk 1/2 mile from our hotel and there's nothing in sight that we could find and we end up running around the Mall of America which by then is close to our hotel and decided to board the train and head to downtown Minneapolis and as usual most of the places are closing or closed for the night, so we just hailed a taxi and head back to the hotel still hungry poor James. And that was also my first time to see that the downtown was jump-packed because that's where there night life is and I'm telling you police are just everywhere there's some in the usual police car, some in segway and even in horses too.

Saturday, we head to Mall of America for some fun and shopping. We went first to Underwater Aquarium and it was nifty and I was able to pet Stingrays and Sharks it was scary and fun at the same time. Then we head to Nickelodeon and the kids had fun riding the rides and went to see Lego land. Before lunch time my friends Rick and Joy Schneider who came all the way from Spooner, WI were already waiting for me and ready to go to IKEA to have some lunch and shop as well and I was able to introduce to my friends who I went with on that trip and then the 3 of us head to IKEA to grab some lunch and shop some and that place was just wonderful if I could have the money and a trailer to put some big stuff I would really shop a lot for my house but oh well I just have to be happy to pick up some small items in the store. Then we went back to the Mall of America to shop this time, so I was able to shop some office clothes mainly which I am happy and don't forget another purse hehe which my hubby thinks I'm crazy but oh well I always have this reason that I'm a woman and I need to have a lot of purses in different colors. The bad thing is that I didn't see Joy nor Rick when they head out to have eat dinner with Rick's Mom cause Joy is in another floor of the mall and the mall is just humongous so we just bade goodbye through the phone, which we convince to ourselves that's why we didn't really say goodbye cause I know we will see each other again. And also one of my friends is waiting for me outside the store that I was stuck forever. So I had Ganggang and Joe Turner with me who was waiting patiently for me to check out. And we visit and shop again then decided to go to the hotel so I can change and then we head back to the Mall of America and had dinner at Rainforest Cafe and that was just so nice and we had fun visiting each other and the place has a unique atmosphere and before we end that night they invited me if I would love the idea of going to Duluth, Minnesota and see the Lake Superior which part of it borders Canada and without any second thought I said yes but of course I still have to ask my companion if they want to go and when we are leaving to drive back home and they are fine with my idea but they go with me cause they have to accommodate the kids needs and for the kids to have fun time.

Sunday, I'm up early and ready to be picked up. Then we head to Duluth, Minnesota and on our way my friend's hubby asked us if we would love to shop at the outlet store and without any thoughts we said YES!!! hehe. Then drove straight to Duluth and when we were there we ate at Grandma's Saloon which is the oldest place in that town and the food was good and after lunch we went around the lake and there are tons of seagulls hovering everywhere and then we walk some and went to the lighthouse and watch a ship go through on the lift bridge and that place is famous of that. Then we head to Gooseberry Falls which had nice falls and just imagine the place is full, we hike the trail there and I just loved it cause I would say I'm on my element cause I love hiking and being out in the nature. After that we head to Split Rock Lighthouse another nature trail and you could see how vast the Lake Superior is you can't even see where it ends and I had fun playing with the water, I was like I have to do this so I can feel Canadian and American water all together hehe. And being that far up North the weather was just so nice and even we went home I can't believe that we turn on the heater cause it was so cold at night it drops like 40-50°F comparing to Arkansas’s weather we sweat at night hehe and I got back to the hotel past 11pm and pack my things so I would be ready for my trip back home and see my hubby again. I missed him so much but oh well thanks to him for letting me go and travel.

My friend woke me up early Monday morning and we got ready grab some breakfast head straight to Arkansas we just stop to refuel, bathroom, breaks and grab some food. We hit 4 States in one day counting Minnesota, Iowa, Missouri and Arkansas. And I got home past 5pm and just so excited to see my hubby and be back in his arms hmmm. And so far I never feel tired because I had fun and no husband or kid to take with.

Again, thanks to Rick and Joy Scneider for being so nice that you really drove down to Minneapolis to met with me for a short time of 6 hours (I wish we could hang out longer than that next time.) and to Joe and Jaycelle (Ganggang) Turner for accommodating and driving me around town and even going that far that it's just like an hour or two we are already in Canada.

Davis Family (Russell, Zach and Sasha) they really looked tired on this picture.

The Holmes Family looking at there food overhead (Fritz Railroad Restaurant)

with Rick and Joy Schneider inside Mall of America at the Nickelodeon Theme Park.

the bridge will lift when there's a ship that's going underneath the bridge.

the bridge will go down when it is safe to do so lighthouse in the area Joe and Jaycelle Turner taken at the Gooseberry Falls State Park taken at Split Rock Lighthouse and when you look at the opposite direction you are facing Canada.

Exhausted but still learning....

This week I’m just busy and trying to caught some stuff do around the house as well. Last Saturday, we visited one of my hubby’s old friend whom he hasn’t seen for more than 10 years but of course there’s more to that but this is not the good avenue to share it further so let’s just leave it that way. We go to Mt. Vernon, MO where they live and at the present they are building there house which they hope by Thanksgiving this year it will be over and I think it would, so we help them some though we don’t have any clue what’s going on because we don’t have any experience at all but we have fun and I knew a lot of things there and we stopped a little after 12 because it’s really hot, so we clean up and head for lunch, then do a lot of visit with each other, then tour around the area, got back to there place have some karaoke, card game called spoon (this is fun y’all), Taboo (fun game too!) and have some snacks and we called it the day and get back home a little past 10 in the evening. Then the following day we just take it easy cause we are just exhausted and tired.

Monday, I started with my driving school at Driving Academy of Northwest Arkansas and I just didn’t imagine that after we got off from school I have to work on my homework till 10pm maybe I’m slow or dumb or I would say there are just tons of homework do men I didn’t thought of that, Tuesday still attending on the class then got home and do the homework go to around class which was my favorite the Photography class which is just every Tuesday from 6:30-8:30 in the evening which would end next Tuesday and I learn more than just reading my manuals and it does help when you have an instructor to ask some questions.

Even the school is exhausting and mind draining I did learn a whole compared from just hearing and other’s people point of you and my hubby was right that he better have someone license teach me than just anybody and I swear they really have a good teaching material even I’m exhausted after school I could still say to myself that I learn a whole lot.

Today I’m just happy that I’m off from my class but not finish cause I still have to cover up for tomorrows class cause I’m heading to Nebraska then Minnesota which I really look forward to.

And so I hope everyone got to have a restful weekdays and stay inside cause it’s really not got to be outside cause it’s hot, I dunno where you are but where I am it’s darn hot….

it's me be a good helper

my hubby on the orange shirt

Busy weekdays and long weekend coming up...

Busy weekday as usual, I've been running around like chicken with the head cut off. This week I help my officemate/friend to move to her new house and I tag along with her most of the time maybe because I'm going to be gone for more than a week next week. But for some reason bad luck comes the least you expect it, first we got pull over by the cop because she's driving 5o in 40 speed zone nyay good thing she just got a warning *huff* *huff* then the following day she got a parking ticket because she is a butthead like me I told her not to park in a red line but of course I just got her "I don't think so" comment oh well sometimes you learn the hard way. Still we had a good time being around with each other.

And this weekend I'm going with my hubby to meet a long time friend that he just got reconnected lately, I hope the people who knows my situation would pray earnestly as I do hehe.

But the best part is that I'm going to have a long weekend cause I'm not coming back to the office not until next Tuesday and I'm going with my friends to Nebraska and visit a train museum up there and drive up to Minneapolis, Minnesota to go to Mall of America and I would have a chance to see two of my friends there as well, I can't wait for that day.

I hope everyone will have a good weekend and stay hydrated.

An update of my life

I think I’m slacking with keeping updates here. Well, for the past weeks life seems just been so busy were running around like a chicken with our head cut off. 11th of July we went to one of our Filipino friends’ house and have dinner with them because it’s his sons 1st birthday here in America then I was able to made a quick visit with my co-worker who lives a few blocks away from my friends house and bring her some Filipino dish and she likes.

Then that Saturday, we went home to Oklahoma to visit my other Filipino friend who just arrived with her family from Hawaii and they are retiring there which is like 10 miles away from my in-laws so I was able to visit with her and ate Filipino dish again this time we both cooked it while my hubby paid a visit to his cousin who is building some props in preparations for the upcoming Halloween and my hubby helped a little then he picked me up and we head to his folks place and have supper with them and visit and got home so late.

Then just Friday I helped my hubby build his computer from scratch and he enjoys it more than I do cause I was also multitasking from cleaning our bedroom, bathroom, kitchen, living room, other spare rooms, doing the laundry and the lists goes on. But I was able to relax and do the things I enjoys the best after having some quick supper and a little stroll around the neighborhood I was able to take pictures with my Filipino friend who is willing to be my model that night and we had it in the park close the apartment where she lives where we used to live as well. And to top it all we had a get together with my Filipino friend in there place and have some barbeque and we had a good visit.

So I hope to everyone out there you have a great week ahead of you. And stay cool.

Hike in Spring and Summer

This pictures were taken early Spring.

This pictures were taken early Summer.

With the 2 sets of pictures you can really tell the difference with the level of water.

During Spring when you start the trail you can really hear the water running during Summer it was just so quiet it seems the place was abandoned. Still I love the hike either way you can see how the season affect the environment.

flora

flora7
Originally uploaded by honciel

I got the opportunity to take different kinds of wild flower while we were hiking at the Prairie State Park and I enjoyed the beauty and the magnificence of the nature.

It is really nice to be out and about in the nature. And I hope you enjoy the pictures as much I enjoyed taking pictures of them

Bison in Liberal, MO

5th of July hubby and I wanted to go visit one of his friend and help there with there house because they are under construction but it end up they will just work part of that day cause they have a dinner at 4:00pm with there friends, good thing my hubby had a plan B.

And that plan B was to go hiking or be in a nature and chosen Prairie State Park in Liberal, MO because they are known for there Bison and my hubby graduated from a University where Bison is there mascot.

So, here are some pictures of Bison, unfortunately we just saw one of many Bison around the area cause I think they are hiding somewhere cause the sun was up and it is really hot and humid out there.

A Serene Day

Sally and Whitney

My hubby loves this picture and I want my friends, family and visitors of this blog to see it as well.

Hope you enjoy browsing through my blog.

Ladybug

the original picture of the ladybug

and this is the edited one.

While Whitney is driving with the 4 Wheeler we stop at a pond and I have the grand time of taking pictures of the flora out there and we saw this lady bug just as pretty as can be.

I hope you enjoy browsing through here.

Watching Sunset infront of me.

the sun is getting ready to set.

the sun is setting beautifully in the horizon

I had a chance to watch this beautiful sun as it sets in the horizon. Very beautiful indeed! And I tell you it set so fast and we saw it and I enjoy it as it happens infront of me.